At one of the boarding and training stables where I took riding lessons, there was a custom passed down through generations of instructors and eager children. If a horse managed to unseat a young rider, the slightly bruised and dirty little victim was allowed to pull a few strands of said horse’s tail. The instructor… Continue reading Atonement
Cancer is a Word, Not a Sentence
I am the one who doesn’t like to fast forward during the commercials. While others get up from the couch for a bathroom break, to grab a beer, take a phone call, or interrupt our programming to discuss the new season of whichever show we happen to be watching, I sit riveted to the screen.… Continue reading Cancer is a Word, Not a Sentence
I’ll Take the Sexy Name
When it comes to radiation therapy products, the high tech companies really outdo themselves with names. It seems to me that the higher the price tag on the item, the more thought goes into the label. Varian, the largest manufacturer of linear accelerators, trumped its competition with the moniker on its latest linac, the “TrueBeam”. … Continue reading I’ll Take the Sexy Name
NURSE!!
For Donna, Linda and Kelly When I was an Internal Medicine intern, my very first rotation was in the Coronary Care Unit, aka “the CCU.” Nothing could be more frightening to both the intern and the patient than an acute myocardial infarction the first week in July. It is a well-known fact that hospital mortality… Continue reading NURSE!!
What Does Your Mommy Do For a Living?
The year was 1997, and my youngest was having his sixth birthday. What he wanted for his party was for me to take him and his friends to the local amusement park. They would have free access to the rides, swarm the arcade, play on the ersatz beach with its immense man made waves, and… Continue reading What Does Your Mommy Do For a Living?
If Wishes Were Horses
For Missy Is there any woman alive who can’t recite the old nursery rhyme “If wishes were horses,then beggars would ride”? The line is etched into the memory of every little girl who ever wanted a pony, but its true lineage dates back to James Carmichael’s Proverbs of Scots circa 1628 when the original read … Continue reading If Wishes Were Horses
Who Wants to be First?
After much preparation, we opened our new radiation therapy department in September 2008. Many many elements and “players” had to come together to produce a new state of the art community cancer center. No detail was overlooked– the existing space had to be renovated to create a more “zen-like” work flow and feel; the front… Continue reading Who Wants to be First?
Gifts of the Magi
In my mind’s eye, I see them coming—a long processional stretching back years, each with a different cloak of disease, each with a small receptacle. They come bearing gifts for me, their doctor—a small box, a carefully folded tissue, a child’s sippy cup (the top tightly closed), and occasionally, yes, toilet paper. What are these… Continue reading Gifts of the Magi
The Golden Rules of Cancer
Rule # 1: I didn’t give you your cancer so be nice to me. And the corollary: Rule # 2: You didn’t give you your cancer so be nice to yourself. I believe that in dealing with cancer, it helps to play by the rules. The first rule means that as angry as you are… Continue reading The Golden Rules of Cancer
THE FREEDOM TO BE NEEDED
Doctors lie all the time. Call it hubris “I can do THIS for you!”, call it denial “I KNOW you are going to get better!”, call it what you want. But nowhere do they lie more than when you ask them if they want their children to go to medical school. Most of them come… Continue reading THE FREEDOM TO BE NEEDED