For Once, Then, Something

As I was leaving for Boston, I asked if anyone would care to contribute to this blog.  I am still processing the wonderful things that friends and family have sent me.  This one is from my husband.

One drop fell from a fern, and lo, a ripple
Shook whatever it was lay there at bottom,
Blurred it, blotted it out. What was that whiteness?
Truth? A pebble of quartz? For once, then, something.    Robert Frost

 
Our daughter is in the last year of medical school and is having a hard time deciding what career path to take. She has applied for a residency program in internal medicine, but a recent experience with her grandfather in Africa where she was able to assist in the surgical repair of a variety of physical deformities has made her wonder if a career in surgery might be a better fit.

Choosing a career is a really big deal. Since most of us have to live with the choice – good or bad – for much of our adult lives, it’s a decision not to be taken lightly. This is particularly true in medicine, where the training is long and arduous, and by its very nature is not something you want to repeat again should your first career choice not work out. Yet, there aren’t many “how to” books written on the subject, and few of us feel comfortable directing someone else along a career path that might not work out for them. So, what advice – if any – might I give my daughter?

Based mostly on personal experience and some library research I performed as an undergraduate, I suspect that many of us choose a career based on a “gut” feel. Sometimes a career just feels right. Perhaps it’s the intangibles or maybe just good fortune. I know in my case it was a little of both.

My daughter recently asked me how it was that I ended up being a pulmonary physician. The question brought to mind how many different career paths I actually explored along the way. Once, I wanted to be a psychiatrist. This was at the beginning of medical school when I was fresh from spending endless hours listening to the sometimes neurotic musing of my college friends. Hey, this was interesting and could be fun, particularly if you’re getting paid for it. So, I picked psychiatry for my first elective rotation in med school, and saw what real mental illness is like. One of my patients was a teenage girl, who seemed outwardly normal, but confided in me that she had had an immaculate conception and was going to deliver the Lord’s baby. When I asked the attending psychiatrist if there was a pill for this, he looked at me like I was the crazy one. Psychiatry was definitely not my cup of tea.

Then, I looked into neurosurgery. As an undergraduate, I did an essay on a famous neurosurgeon named Harvey Cushing. An amazingly gifted physician whose written descriptions of his patients – complete with very accurate sketches – can be found to this day on display at Mass General Hospital. It would be great to have a career like Cushing, so I signed up for a neurosurgery rotation. But, this didn’t appeal to me either. The patients didn’t improve very often, and perhaps equally as important, I just couldn’t identify with the attending neurosurgeons who didn’t appear to be as interesting as I imagined Harvey Cushing to be.

So, like my daughter I applied for an internship in internal medicine. From an intellectual point of view, this seemed like a good fit, and I did identify with the attending physicians who seemed smart and articulate. But, there are so many specialties of internal medicine; I really wasn’t sure which to choose. Then, something happened. I was reading up on a patient with an unusual lung infection when I came across an article called “In Defense of the Lung” by a physician named Gareth Green. It described the complex interplay of factors that protect the lungs from infection, and how someday it might be possible to modify lung defenses to help susceptible people actually resist pneumonia. Something about this notion resonated with me, and for the next two decades the interface of infectious disease and pulmonary medicine was my career focus.

Some people find themselves in the career they always imagined for themselves, but I wonder if this is a good thing or not. Did they get a chance to explore how other career paths might have worked out? Were they willing to experiment and take a few chances along the way? As I say, I don’t know if this is a good thing or not. It may be much easier to pick something and stick to it, like my wife has. And in her case, it has been a remarkably rewarding approach. But, I can’t help wishing that my daughter would keep an open mind about opportunities that might come along in medicine or in surgery or in some other branch of medicine. Once this happens, then it could well be that something unexpected and great will be in store for her. I hope so.

One thought on “For Once, Then, Something

  1. Thought provoking. I would imagine that choosing a medical specialty is so much more complicated for most than what it seems like on the surface. And certainly many of us have been treated by physicians who perhaps should have chosen something else, something that they would have been better suited for. I would agree that some process or journey towards the ultimate specialty would be worthwhile; job satisfaction and personal reward (not monetary) is pretty essential. Your wife is clearly different, and perhaps the minority. But then again, she is pretty darn special!

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